failure

stayed up all night with friends for no reason but to have fun. (also wrote a paper but i'm kind of kick-ass at academics, i'll explain later)

this turned out to be a mega problem. they all decided i lost too much weight and i'm too skinny (um what? i don't see it?) but for some reason i believed them and gave in for just one night. here's the cringeworthy damage...

made mac and cheese, ate mac and cheese :(  325 cals

watched football. ate chocolate :( :(  300 cals

went for a drive. ended up at a diner. ate WAY TOO FUCKING MUCH fat greasy buttery food. :( :( :( :( um 1000 cals? i have no idea.

got home. felt SO sick. tried to purge. failed (why???)

I don't deserve to eat ever again. and i don't want to. fast until i pass out or someone forcibly shoves something in my mouth. i feel like i gained at least ten pounds.