songs

just wanted to post some songs that perfectly express how i'm feeling.
I would wait and do it later, but i'll forget and i really want to remember these.

innocent-taylor swift
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AY4ME0ib1mw
I feel like it really captures everything that I feel about myself, like what I wish someone would say to me if they found out about my past and about my eating disorder.
my favorite lyrics:
"lost your balance on a tightrope, lost your mind tryin' to get it back" and
"there's some things you can't speak of, but at night you'll live it all again. You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now, if only you would've seen what you know now then."

wasting my time- Default
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3agqMdoK3uQ
it's just what i'm feeling tonight since the boy just left..again. I know i should be upset, and on some level i know i *am*  upset, but it's almost like i'm only rationally upset and not emotionally, like even when he's here it's different now for me somehow, it's like i'm hollow, i've guarded myself against him, against everyone.
my favorite lyrics:
"well this is not for real, afraid to feel. I just hit the floor, don't ask for more. I'm wasting my time, wasting my time."

belle of the boulevard- dashboard confessional
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOE4CX3BNBM&ob=av3e
this is the song that my username is from by the way.
I'm going to post all the lyrics because obviously it has the most meaning for me out of any song I've found so far. I feel like it's this beautiful mixture of self-pity, insight, and hope. Every time I listen to it, I feel like there really is someone watching over me (I have trouble believing in God), and they're pleading with me to just keep holding on, that they understand what I've been through but somehow in the end i'll be okay.

Down in a local bar
Out on the Boulevard
The sound of an old guitar
Is saving you from sinking
It's a long way down, It's a long way

Back like you never broke
You tell a dirty joke
He touches your leg
And thinks He's getting close
For now you let him
Just this once
Just for now
And just like that
It's over.

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

In all your silver rings
In all your silken things
That song you softly sing
Is keeping you from breaking
It's a long way down, it's a long way

Back here you never lost
You shake the shivers off
You take a drink
To get your courage up
Can you believe it?
Just this once
Just for now
And just like that
It's over

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

Please hold on, it's alright
Please hold on, it's alright
Please hold on

Down in a local bar
Out on the boulevard
The sound of an old guitar
Is saving you

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry you eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard